12 Weeks and 4 days (pregnant)

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I tracked my food for the first time since January 2nd and made conscious food choices this morning.

It. Feels. Wonderful.

I like the 'in control' feeling. I signed back up with Weight Watcher's this morning and before I get any rightfully concerned comments about trying to lose weight while pregnant, that is not what I am doing. I am in maintenance mode where you eat to maintain your weight, not lose, until baby joins us in August.

I simply need to be aware of what I'm eating all the time, because I have gained weight since leaving WW. I know the difference between pregnancy weight and fat. This is fat. I see my body daily and I know what's been happening. I haven't left Onederland yet, which is good.

I won't be publicly tracking my weight because it isn't a weight loss thing and my general weight will increase as the baby gets bigger and my body's blood supply increase (and as my boobs continue to grow--which is happening for the FIRST TIME!!!!! It's wonderful that my boobs have filled out this time aroud : ) )

So I'm back. And it feels great.

12 Weeks and 3 days (pregnant)

I'm going back to Weight Watcher's tomorrow morning. I can't stand that I've gained weight. And no, it's not pregnancy weight. It's fat. Ugly, never-wanted-to-see-it-again fat. So we're putting and end to it. I'll have myself in maintenance mode until August, but at least it'll help curb the additional non-baby pounds that I tend to put on.

I've felt out of control, and I have been eating awfully. It stops now. I worked too hard to watch it just creep back up. So we're taking control of it...I'M taking control of it.

So there : )