Day 9 - I Told Me So

Remember a couple days ago how I mentioned that if I don't get breakfast in early I get ravenously hungry by evening?

Yup.

That was today.

But I was responsible about it. I did have a good breakfast (a smoothie in a bowl). I ate kinda junky the rest of the day, but I accounted for it all and can call it quits for the day now. I know it's not going to derail me... But now my tummy hurts. : /


Tomorrow: The chia seed!

Day 192 - Big Confessions

I have been sick for about 4 months; the last 4-5 weeks being worse. I battle this everyday, and most of the time I win. But it will always take it's turn having the better of me. I've come to realize this about my life, and I have found ways to fight it. But I will always fight it.

The difference now is that I have set myself up a new lifestyle, a healthful one, and this sickness is interfering to a detrimental degree. It's burning the vast landscape of good habits I've worked so hard to develop. I know better days will come again, and as always I have to ride out this storm.

But this journey has been about interacting in a positive way with food; about learning how to take care of my body. Now, I have no appetite. I've resisted food for the last 2 weeks (not completely, I wouldn't be here to write to you all). I have accumulated about 18-20 hours of sleep over the last 8 days. And because when it's here the illness rules, it's been difficult to break.

I'm trying hard, and I'm fighting. And I'll make it out, I know this about myself. It's why you haven't seen many recipes or dinner ideas in the last 2 weeks. I will commit to making something great for you by this weekend. Let's give it a deadline: before my Sunday weigh in post (which may be drastic again) I will have sent out some good food love.

In the meantime, I'm off to attempt to eat something. And sleep.

Day 190 - Ugh. Focus is Dwindling.

Not my focus on losing weight. Still good there.

My focus on doing it by creating a healthy lifestyle. I still haven't felt like eating, after almost 10 days. I am eating, but barely. To give you a picture of what I should be eating (point-wise) I am at 31 daily points with about 7 extra points for use. So we'll call it 38. And the required fruits and veggies are zero points...

I'm eating on average about 8 points per day. I'm not myself right now and I kind need to snap out of it. It's hard, though, when you have no appetite and food just isn't interesting.

However this headache that I have had all day (writing this Monday night) probably will motivate me to eat/drink more fairly soon. Hopefully.

(I told you it wouldn't all be pretty.)

Day 186 - Not Eating Does Not Help Weight Loss

I've been feeling a little off this week. Many reasons, none of which should have kept me from eating what I need to daily, but that's what happened. I need a much better plan for the next two weeks--they will set my habits on the right track leading up to my departure for a 3 week trip out west to eat and drink my way through Seattle and Portland.

There have been at least 4 days this week that I haven't eaten all of my points (Weight Watcher's).

GHGs (good healthy guidelines)? What are those?

And my tracking my food... well that was painstaking.

We'll see what the scale gives me tomorrow. Stop by to see.